I’ve been debating whether or not to write this post for a while now. I guess I decided to go for it, even though I’m not 100% convinced it’s a good idea as I sit here typing.
A little over a week ago, I experienced my first mental breakdown concerning my gluten-free lifestyle. It was very surprising to me, because I didn’t even get emotional the day I was diagnosed with celiac disease. I’m not sure why or how, but the reality of my disease hit me like a ton of bricks. I started crying, and then I cried myself straight to sleep.
My husband was right by my side, and I truly empathize with him. This wasn’t exactly the ideal situation for him – having a wife with ‘special’ dietary needs. But he does his best to support me in ways he knows how.
I try very hard to not let celiac disease control my life. In fact, I attempt to make it fun (thus the blog). But the truth is, it is not always as easy as I make it look.
I often think that if I make my lifestyle look fun and easy to others that it will be just that for me. For the most part, it works! However, there are a lot of times that are neither fun nor easy.
I don’t want to go into too much detail about why being gluten-free is tough. But I will say, it’s not the eating gluten-free part that is hard for me.
It’s all the people around me that are living regular lives. Those that try to be super accommodating make me feel guilty, and those that don’t remember or care make me angry.
You can’t win.
I told my husband that I think I just need to feel more appreciated. Though I normally don’t let anyone (including myself) recognize that being gluten-free is emotionally draining, it is. It would make me feel better knowing that my loved ones appreciate the work that I put in each day.
My loved ones are already super supportive in so many ways. They do everything from making gluten-free options for me to choosing gluten-free restaurants to eat at when we are together.
But sometimes, I just need a little affirmation. Every once in a while, I’d like to hear, “Brynne, you’re very strong. You do a great job managing your gluten-free lifestyle. I’m proud of you.”
I wrote this post, not because I wanted to throw a pity party, but because I hope it will help those who are reading it.
If you are gluten-free, let me just say that I am proud of you. I know it can be hard, but you are doing a great job!
If you know someone who has celiac disease or gluten-intolerance, I encourage you to give him or her this type of support.
You have no idea what a positive impact your simple words could have on them.